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Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Ramadhan's Journal#6: Dear heart, I'm sorry.




During fasting: RPM (675+ Colories)

After fasting: None




Dear heart,

I kept feeling my chest with my hands the moment I finished blowing balloons for the kids this evening. As if a needle pierced through your core, and I couldn't help but to hold and control my breath with extreme care not to feel the pain again...You made me worried....Are you all right?

I'm sorry for abusing you for the past week. Ramadhan could have been a shocking change to you, and I feel sad that i didn't prepare you for that....but yeah, we were a good team...I've had you whenever I needed an extra push, I can feel how fatigued you were, madly pumping blood to keep me wild and reckless...but honestly, I enjoyed my journey with you.

Unfortunately, we are on a road of no return this month. I can't help but to believe that either way you will get healthier and stronger. Just bear with me in the challenges to come.

All what I need is your support to my desire and will to reach a possible state of mind where physical energy becomes infinite. If only I could feel that for once I'd be satisfied.

If you think that I'm a blind fool chasing butterflies, its all right... even If i didn't get there in time...It's all right...even if such thoughts don't exist, its all right...All what I can say is that my journey with you have been good times... and I'm willing to move on.



Yours truly,

Rayan


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